The Now and the Then

I wish that I'd picked those wild flowers
That grow beside the road
And sat
On the hood of my car
At least once more
To watch
As the yellow sunset
Slowly dipped under my view
Why am I so stubborn
So selfish
That I couldn't make myself
Think about the now more
And the future less
I used to wish for
That picture perfect
Normal
Life
Because my life wasn't
But now
I don't know why
For now I know that's not right
I want a future filled with laughter
And odd, quirky memories
To put me to sleep
And then
And only then
Will I be able to smile
A real smile
In the arms of my love
No matter who
Or what
They are
For that's my future
But now
Is the now
And I am writing this
On the hood of my Bronco
As I watch the gentle stars
Fall from their old places in the sky
So that they too can move on
From what they were supposed
To be

-Apple

Stand Up

We must all unify as members of the genus Homo

Especially of the species H. sapiens

That's what all humans are

So why is there always that one man

Who are they judging

This world was made for all

Not just those

Who think they’re more deserving or powerful

Than the rest

For there is neither Jew nor Greek

There is neither slave nor free

There is no male or female

For you are all one

As our sixteenth said

Four score and seven years ago

Our fathers brought forth on this continent

A new nation

Conceived in liberty

And dedicated to the proposition

That all men are created equal

At last it is time

It is time to walk

Hand in hand

For it matters not

Who or what you are

Or who you claim to be

How is it

That the world can not see

It is time to rise from discrimination

And blind our eyes

For color

And race

So that the sons of the rich

And the sons of the poor

Shall be together at last

With those of former slaves and owners

That will be the day

When the sky turns to blood

And bleeds on those who cried

“We don’t serve your kind!”

Every person out there is unwilling to change

No matter what they say

Or who they fool

We all think we’re getting closer to our destination

To our dream

That we’ve travelled for so far

We must stand and yell

Let freedom ring

So we can follow our King

-Apple

Music

Before there was music

There was silence

Boredom

Loneliness

People would sit around

And think

Their robot thoughts

Then there was

The thing presided over by the Muses

The melody that fills your ears

When you walk alone in the streets

The corner stone of society

That opens one’s soul

And enriches you

While being your entertainment

And passion

Music is able to fill you with that special memory

Your personal experience

For good or bad

While it takes you along the road of life

Inspiration

Energy

Enrichment

Music

-Apple

Looking Back at my Life

My fingers claw
Through the velvet and soil
Trying to escape out of the dirt
That seemed to
Have fallen over my body and soul
Burying me deeply in a dark grave
As I kneel on the ground
Remembering why I was down there
And how I'd dug the blade
Deep in
The crimson dripping
Onto the floor
Tears formed rivers down my face
As the pain that held me down most my life
Told me
You mean so little
The world would be a better place
If you...
I had tried to break a cycle
Of sorry and misery
But every time
It always had to rain
Just once more
I had to see what it was like
Without me
The door creaked open
As I stepped
Into my past
The life I'd left
For I had to see it one last time
Before I left forever
So I took the step
That was once a welcoming threshold
Disbelief filled me
Like a thousand shards of glass
How could everything
Have changed so much
From the last time
I looked around the room
It cannot be
I search around the chilled room
For his warm gaze
Yet
He was already gone
And all of his things
Missing
Except a broken picture of us
Laying on the floor
My old room was similar
I could almost see his kneeling
Over my bed
Tears streaking his face
As he had that day
That single tune dancing around the house
A single beat
Caught on the broken record
That sat on my old desk
The endlessly scratching needle
On the broken record
Repeating
The sad melody of my life
My hands shake
As I remember why I left
The record skips into a new song
How could you assume you mean so little
Why did you assume the world would be nicer
My unwilling knees bow
As I collapse upon them
Spewing tears
As the rain welcomes me once more
Into the city
Of the dead

-Apple

Human

A member of the genus Homo
Especially of the species H. sapiens
That's what a human is
In science
But does anyone really
Think beyond that
A human
Is someone at battle
Between the good
And the sin
They carry permanent scars
Because nothing is all beautiful
And they can fall apart
And lose everything
While still staying strong
They're unpredictable
Some wish to be invincible
While others sell their souls
They're imperfect
But who really cares
They live on
Just because they can't dream of anything else
A life without mortal pain
And sorrow
Their world is dark
And full of hate
Yet they keep living on
Through the pain
And the war
But all it takes
To break them
Is love to spark

-Apple

Hello

The room was filled
With people without faces
Just small talk
And forgetfulness
As we stand in a circle
Getting to know people is always hard
Should I lie
Or ruin everything and tell them about the real me
Then someone starts
Hello, my name is Remorse
Have we met
Only once or twice
Or every single day of my life
Hello, my name is Defeat
I know you recognize me
We used to play together
When we were younger
And when you thought you'd won
I'd kill you again
Hello, my name is Envy
Remember
I'm the one who always won
Always had this and that
You may not remember me
But I remember the look in you eyes
As you stared at my name
Hello, my name is Anger
Don't look at me like that
We're family after all
Yet
Why was it
That I
Was always better
And then it's my time
Hello, my name is...

-Apple

John

I could hear my rapid breath

As I lay awake in bed

Remembering the time I first gave up

For nothing happened to me anymore

I was told to tell the world my life

But as I said

Nothing ever happened to me

Then I met you

And when I finally jumped

You caught me
I was down

You picked me up
And when I crumbled

You taped me back together

You simply refused to say goodbye

And that’s when I realized

You loved me

So why?
When you looked down at me

With your unforgettable coat blowing around you

And your shoes inches off the edge

My face puffy and red

While painful tears stream down

You pressed the dreadful cell to your face

And you said those final words
I wanted so hard to places my shaking hands over my ears

Wishing I couldn't hear a single word you said

“I’m a fake” you told me

“Okay, shut up. Shut up” I replied

Goodbye

And with your arms stretched out wide

You didn’t fly

When I’d jumped

You’d caught me
When I was down

And picked me up
You taped me back together

When I crumpled
You'd loved me

So why did I hear

The crunching of your body breathing

And your dark blood pouring out more and more onto the ground around

Your final resting place

Everything stopped

At least it did for me

As I ran towards you

Even though the world seemed to be trying to stop me

From getting to you

My love

And only for seconds

I was allowed to stand

Over your cold body

When it was your turn to jump

I couldn't catch you
You were down

And I couldn't hold you

You crumbled

I had no tape
I thought you loved me…

But our time together will never end
For I have the feeling

That I will see you soon
And until then

I promise I won't forget
Your face

Forever embedded in my heart

-Apple